Jan 2021 Breath in My Vaccination Story

Jan 2021 Breath in My Vaccination Story

 

What is a vaccination?

A vaccination is a treatment  to produce immunity against a disease; inoculation. The act of introducing a pathogen (in lesser intensities) into the body to activate sustainability resources for health or to produce immunity to a specific disease.

 

What is disease and how does it come about?

Basically, “dis ease” is our body’s way of messaging us about an imbalance so that we might heighten our awareness and realign ourselves with our natural state of harmonious well-being in all the ways: physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. It is a very complex phenomena because it holds information far beyond the physical manifestation. Actually, it starts energetically and concludes with a physical form. When we do not hear the message, we are signaled again and again. The messaging may be not only for us but all those with whom we are interconnected and related. There’s a lot of benefit for a lot of people so one person’s “dis ease” can further the transformation and growth of a vast COLLECTIVE network! It’s important to remind ourselves that we did nothing wrong. We are not bad. Whatever is happening is required to happen for a grand evolution back home to LOVE i.e. THE HOLY NEUTRAL Some things may just be lying dormant under the surface outside our  realm of perception and the time has come to allow the energies to flow by EMOTING!!

BREATH IS LIFE FORCE!

ACTIVE BREATHING SUPPORTS FLOW OF EMOTIONS!

EMOTING ALLOWS ENERGIES TO MOVE!

               SOFTENING OPENS AND DEEPENS OUR FELT PERCEPTIVE EXPERIENCE AND COMPASSIONATE UNDERSTANDING OF OURSELVES, OTHERS AND ALL LIVING ENTITIES.

IT’S A PROCESS OF GETTING OUT OF OUR HEADS AND INTO AN EMBODIED HEART.

 

MAKING FRIENDS WITH FEAR IN ALL OF ITS PRESENTATIONS:

Fear is an imbalance. Conscious breathing allows our fears to be felt, loved and held like a small child desiring comfort and connection. This empowers us to move into responding vs automatic reacting. Reflections vs drama!

In small doses, like a vaccination, FEAR is a great teacher

                                                                                           

At this point in our human evolution,  we may not eradicate fear completely nor do we want to do that because it serves a purpose but we can befriend and partner with it in a new way.  It might take a bit of devotion and settling down inside ourselves to see that a consistent, intentional, active Breath Practice will spoon feed us bite size pieces of our fears so that we learn to “be” with them purely energetically. We drop the programmed associations and simply EMOTE. We learn to digest, metabolize, assimilate rather than fight and resist what is present. Through this we become genuinely acquainted with the authenticity of our grace, glory and goodness.

WHY? The human condition puts a boundary on our inherent expansive nature so that we might experience a full spectrum of ALIVENESS.  It’s a gift and a divine privilege to bump up against our humanness and expand into our next level of Becoming. At this point in our human evolution we are turning a corner with regard to how we relate to our fears.

Breath clears the passageway so that we might return home and experience what is at the center of our humanness. A spark of divine inspiration.

Breath is a gracious host inviting us to be with our guests (fears) and letting them go when their visit is complete.

 

MY VACCINATION STORY: 

One of my BREATH experiences as I am guided into my Essence!

I devoted myself to DEEP BREATHE facilitated by a wise loved one. I was ripe….very ripe to soften into myself in a way I had only dreamed. I set my whole heart into an intention of “Allowing”. I was committed to breathing, taking the hand and guidance of spirit in whatever manner it appeared.

I have cultivated a consistent (twice a day) breathing practice so my relationship with spirit continues to mature. Breath ( She)  has been teaching me how to communicate in the ethereal realms with greater clarifying connection.

 So I was ready, willing and, above all, believing I was ready.

It started calm and easy. Relaxing, loosening, easing, and dropping my full body into a surrendered position. This, in and of itself, has been a big process and it continues in all the ways as I grow.

The first trepidations came with what seemed like sparks of fear showing me how even a minute change can be startling to my system.  Ok, I can accept, feel, and be with that. It’s a good thing to know.

I noticed, experienced and allowed it to be exactly as it was.

Breathing, Breathing, Breathing!

Going Deeper….

Growing Still,

Allowing Silence,

Being Spacious and Going Deeper yet again into the meta of my own internal intimate universe.

 

Things began to open up. She was flowing and breathing me. I was no longer the orchestrator.

In that instant, I gave the reigns to something beyond my comprehension.

The messaging was crystal clear.

All you have to do is …..RESPIRATE RESPIRATE RESPIRATE

How much I RELAX is directly related to how much abundance I PERCEIVE as well as EMBRACE?

 

THE FACT IS THAT…..

The Universe is showing me again and again an unending supply of resources are being made available to ME…little Darryn Silver Murdoch.

The Universe/Spirit/Essence cares that much about me. Wo!!! That’s a lot to take in AND it’s here now! It’s available to all of us!

It’s right here now in ways beyond your wildest dreams and will continue to blow your imagination out of the water.

She showed me a visualization of a huge wave of water moving mountains. Water signified emotions.  Even the sturdiest of fixed beliefs, programming and imprints can soften when they are ALLOWED to be as they are.

All experiences are purposeful.

She shows me the significance of holding a steadfast focus. Face to the sun!

In the past, I might have merged with another person’s suffering thinking that was compassion. I might have gone into my head and numbed myself out to avoid the pain as well as holding an opinion about what I was experiencing as good or bad, adequate or inadequate, kind or harsh etc. You get the idea…judgment and/or criticism.

She shows me that it is not cold NOT to join in another’s suffering for that holds no benefit for them, myself or the WHOLE. I knew this mentally but to have the embodied experience of this makes it REAL and grounds it within me.

I could feel how as I retained a clear focus on pure LOVE, THE ULTIMATE HOLY NEUTRAL, I was allowing something beautiful to flourish that I could not DO with all the DOINGS in the world

RESPIRATE RESPIRATE RESPIRATE

CRESCENDO OF FEAR

Then the crescendo. An overwhelming fear shuddered through my body. My legs shakes, I began to tap my chest and asked my facilitator to hold my hand.

It was an old energy lodged in my lower back. Part of my intention was to get in touch with the energy which was messaging me through lower back pain. I allowed it to be felt. My facilitator’s hand grounded me and I felt safe to feel in whatever ways it would come. Crying was not part of the experience this time. I just felt the fear and accompanying sensations: racing heartbeat, shaking leg, confusion, and kept my breathing steady all the while.

I could put a label on it like shame, intrusion or the sort but that would dilute the magnitude of the experience. I felt such a level of grand emancipation just in the mere ability to BE WITH this energy. My breath opened up even more.  She messages me that there is MORE in all the ways.

Fully enlivening into LIFE is an experience of MORE and MORE LOVE when we ALLOW.

                             Although the pain in my back has decreased dramatically , there is more to be explored.

I used to say

I WANT MORE!

I WANT MORE!

Wanting MORE is expected because I am always expanding as are YOU!

This is how the Universe responded to my desire for I WANT MORE:

THANK YOU SPIRIT!

MINDFULNESS PRACTICE

Select a body part. Start with something that has no challenges.

Set your clock for 60 minutes

Give your breath a color.

Breath that color into that body part with no expectations of anything.

Notice the revelations that will unfold. They may not come during the breath session.

They may come at time when you are not looking for them

 

 

 

 

 

 

This Post Has 2 Comments

  1. Denise Tucker

    Thank you for your authenticity and being willing to share the intimacies of your practice with me. You are a beautiful light worker.

    1. Kirk Murdoch

      Thank you Denise! Keep sharing your art my Bright Light!

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